Through an analysis of Delight Ministries, an evangelical women’s college ministry, this installation reflects on the process of identity formation in evangelical womanhood. At first glance, this installation appears fun, inviting, and lighthearted. The warm and bright colors paired with the tactile sensations of cardboard and yarn, evoke a feeling of play and joy. This is how women’s evangelical ministries feel, and for many women, this is the experience they find or hope to find. However, the unraveling crochet pieces, the battered washing machine door, and the surrounding quotes slowly shift the installation from a feeling of play to one of control and destruction. This visual tension gets at the contradictions often present in these communities: achieving white, heterosexual, submissive Christian womanhood and a sense of belonging in these communities comes at a cost. Like a washing machine that tumbles, washes, and rewashes clothes, evangelical women also endure a repurifying process dependent on acknowledging their personal failures and continually surrendering oneself to God. As Delight Ministry states, obedience is “not just a one time decision.” This repetitive and intensive identity formation lends itself well to crochet: a craft defined by meticulous repetition, and at times, active unraveling. Like crochet, many evangelical women’s ministries promote an endless cycle of refinement. As Delight puts it, “Refinement is a process that is necessary and beautiful. It removes the impurities and unwanted elements from our lives. It shapes us into a holy vessel that reflects the image of Abba. He knows what he’s doing with us.” In this installation, I examine the tension between play and destruction in women’s evangelical ministries in order to underline how the work of Christian womanhood is continuous and never complete. This identity formation not only makes perfection unattainable, but requires the complete destruction of the self in the hopes of gaining it.